Psychological studies had deemed gratitude as the main source of happiness. Perhaps that is something God planted in us, like what Descartes described as the finger print. But C.S. Lewis talked about feeling joy, something beyond happiness and pleasure. He said it is something only a believer can experience. Perhaps joy is what we should aim for in our daily life. Thanking God’ll give us happiness, but experiencing God, there’s everlasting joy.
Let me hunger no more, O Lord. Let me find pleasure in pleasing You. Let me shed this old self and rid of this sin on me. I am not worthy, but You took on everything to make me worthy. I do not love myself because of me. I love because You first love. Give me strength, give me courage, give me wisdom and Your spirit. Fuel me in You. And motivate me to do the right things.
When pain and suffering come, where do I turn to? I turn to my Lord. There is no where else to go. Yet when joy and happiness arrive, I immediately turn away, bathe myself in the world. I’ve forgotten about my Lord, the One who took me out of misery. Dear God, please forgive me. Let me be in You, in happiness; to celebrate with You, and in sadness; for you to be my comfort. Everything here is only temporary. But Your love is forever, and it’ll carry on. Thank You.
Thy word is a lamb onto my feet. My feet are weak, full of scars and blisters. My toes and bruised. My ankle bent. But I know if I follow Your light, I can walk in Your righteous way. Let Your light burn bright, let Your fire warm my cold feet. So let me walk, walk to the end, until I can walk no more, then I know, You’re right behind me, to carry me into Your arms. Thanks be to God.
The fall is our disobedience toward God. It is our own fault for being in this. Yet His Grace, the almighty God, reached down, to save. I am in debt, yet I continue to add to my debt. How great is His Grace. How Great is His Love. I Must become better, through Him. I must cut away from sin. It is the only thing I am here for. Thank you.
I am a servant of God. Often times a bad servant. But I am His, and that is what’s important. I am His. I tie myself down with the world too much. I tie myself down with my own thinking. Instead, if I can just feel Him, His love, His wisdom… Let me be closer to you by dropping my baggage. Let me feel You more, O Lord. I thank Thee for everything You’ve done for me. All I can do is to thank You. Amen.
Knowing thy self is not a permission to condone one’s flaws and sins. I was foolish to fall back into my old self by giving myself a passport to sin. It is easy to rationalize my flaws as a part of me, thus it is only natural for me to do the things I do. But God wants us to be more; to be more like Him. With my own power, that is impossible. But with Him, all things are possible.